I don’t know about you, but I tend to get pretty stressed out about life.  My to-do lists just never seem to end, and there are never enough hours in the day.  I work from the time I get up until the time I go to bed.  Reminds me of my Great Aunt Bertha.  “I work!”  She cranked out with her wrinkled, old finger pointing in general at anyone and everyone.  “I work!”  I don’t have a clue how old she was, but I swear it must have been near 200!

Okay!  Seriously!  Back to my point.  All this work wears me out.  I feel defeated before I even climb out of bed in the morning.  Everything that really matters gets pushed aside so that I can get done the stuff that somehow has been given more importance.  So the other day when I read ” But when He saw the multitudes, He was moved with compassion for them, because they were weary and scattered, like sheep having no shepherd,” (Matthew 9:36), I actually cried.

In that moment, I was the crowd that Jesus saw before Him.  I was weary, worn out, and lost.  I was without my shepherd because I had allowed the business of life to drag me away from Him.  I didn’t have His strength or His guidance or His comfort.  I cried out to Him and confessed my failures.  In particular was the guilt over not being obedient to His calling in my life in the past while.  But in this time of prayer, God revealed something to me about His callings that I have just never given credit to before.

Many years ago, when my older boys were little, someone in Sunday School told me that my calling was to take care of my boys and raise them up to know God.  It bothered me a lot that I had not discovered my true calling from God.  It bothered me some, too, that this person thought my calling was just being a mom.  I had much bigger spiritual aspirations.  And a calling from God would naturally be spiritual, right?  All these years I have never viewed my role as their mom as a calling from God.  And in those years, I have actually received more “spiritual” callings.  But last week, as I fretted to God over not staying true to His calling, He revealed to me two things.  First, He had given me more than one calling.  They are different from each other.  Some with longer commitment times than others, and some with more sacrifice and work than others.  But all callings from Him are to be met with my obedience.  Second, God revealed to me that being a wife, and a mother, and a teacher, and a daughter, and a sister, and an aunt, etc. are all callings from Him.  He has put me in all of these positions with a purpose for me to fulfill in each one for His honor and glory.  While I have been struggling to be the daughter who lives 450 miles from her dad with ailing health, and being the mom who tries to home school her son with autism and still be a good mom to the other 3 boys and a good wife to her husband, and the teacher who has a caseload that is too big for one person to handle, and the…and the…, I have not viewed these as callings from God.  They were not “spiritual” enough for me, I guess.  And so, I have not sought the help from God that I needed.

In Zechariah, Zerubbabel was laboring with the people of Israel over re-building the Temple of God.  But they were trying to do it all on their own.  And God had a message for Zerubbabel, and for us, too.  We have quoted it many times:  “‘Not by might nor by power, but by My Spirit,’ Says the Lord of hosts,” (Zech. 4:6).

We are not going to succeed in any of our callings without the Spirit of God, our Shepherd when we are weary and scattered.  Romans 8:28 says, “And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose.”  What are the many ways that God has called you according to His purpose?  They will all work together for good.  God will see to that.  But it would really be helpful to us if we remember that we aren’t the ones who will make it work.  Not with our own power or might, for we are weary and weak, worn out, but by the strength and power of the Spirit of God working in and through us.  Acknowledge your callings before God, and then rest in His care as He works through you for His purposes.

God bless and merry Christmas!