Proverbs 31:26-27 (NCV) – She speaks wise words and teaches others to be kind. She watches over her family and never wastes time.
If there is one thing you will learn about me as you read my blog, it will be that I am far from perfect!! The last couple of weeks have been the end-of-the-school-year-rush. Multiple school programs, field trips, track, baseball, meetings, etc. Through in work, family get-togethers, yard work now that the snow is finally gone. My house has looked like a tornado hit!! In my frustration the other night, I began a rant about doing all the work and never receiving help, or being appreciated. I also made sure to throw in all the sacrifices I was busy making for the sake of other family members. It was ugly!! Me and my big old self-serving, glory seeking, pity-partying mouth! Once again I found it necessary to turn my heart to God and seek forgiveness. I humbled myself and asked again for a self-less servant’s heart.
And I wondered…why is it I can give God all the glory for the work He is doing through me on this blog, but I continually seek all the glory for myself in the parenting and work I do at home?
Know what happens when you wonder? God answers. God pointed out to me that I have not given my parenting to Him. I have asked Him for wisdom. I have asked Him to walk beside me. I have asked Him to help me. But what I was saying was, “God, I’m doing this parenting thing, can You help me out when I need it?”
Before I write a post on this blog I pray. I acknowledge that I am a vessel, and ask God to fill me and use me. I ask Him to give me the words, pour His Spirit into me, and flow Him out of me. I ask that His will will be done, and the He will be glorified.
When I was a young girl, I was drinking chocolate milk. My cup was half full when my dad offered to re-fill it for me. It was the first time I ever recalled him doing that. The problem was, the chocolate milk jug and the orange juice jugs were identical to the touch…and my dad is blind. I will just say that the liquid in my cup did not mix well!
I am that cup.
When I write, God fills me with His words. For some reason it never occurred to me that God can fill this cup, this vessel, with more than one thing and make it work. I can be filled with His words for writing, and I can be filled with all the Spiritual wisdom, and guidance, and love necessary to be a good parent. If I ask God to fill me with these gifts when I am mothering, then I will be able to pour them out onto my children. How much more blessed will they be to receive the wisdom, guidance, and love of God through me?! Fill me up, Lord! And pour YOU out! Cover my children with the blessings and gifts that You give to me to give to them. Amen!!!